Hello, I wish you all a happy day. I just want to share my thoughts and get advice. I have been dating my husband for 2 years and have been married for 3 years now.
At first everything was fine. But I accidentally met a guy while working, and after a month we were so attracted to each other that we fell asleep.
At that time, I was working as a guide in the countryside, so my husband could have found out about this without knowing anything about it, but something deep inside me made me unable to forgive myself for cheating on him.
Of course, it is very difficult to say such a bad thing to someone you love. But I didn’t want to say that I love you on my face and hide the fact that I cheated on you, but I told the truth with a trembling voice, no matter how hard it was.
At that time, I thought it was understandable that he would break up with me, but he didn’t care about the fact that a child who fell on his own doesn’t cry, but he told me that it would be better to break up with me after hearing all this.
At that time, I thought that it would be better to break up and be tormented by hating myself, so I wiped my tears and hugged her for the last time.
Then, with tears in her eyes, she said, “I can’t live without you, just promise me that you will never cheat on me again.”
After hearing that promise, I promised him that I would love him very much. And I am confident that he has kept his promise and will continue to do so.
The only thing that is bothering me now is that I cheated on him a lot, so if one day my husband cheats on me and I find out, I feel like I have no choice but to forgive him.
But I’m worried about this so much that I don’t think I can forgive myself.
Lately, because of this problem, I feel like I’m becoming very jealous without even realizing it, and sometimes I feel like I’m jealous of my husband in vain.
We don’t see each other, but lately I’ve been thinking about the same thing, guys, please give me some advice…