Good evening. I want inspiration from you all. Now I am 21 years old. 3rd year student. I have been seeing a girl from my school since last spring. At first, I just watched him in class.
We used to sit together in lectures. Later, I started thinking about him all the time. And then I dreamed a lot, thinking about the reason for it. I never spoke to him. But he knows that I see him. But when I saw him, I thought it would be good for me too. And in the spring, after school, during the summer vacation, I often thought about him.
I went to school in the fall and met him on September 1. Since then, I have been meeting him at school. I still can’t do anything but look at it. And in the end, thinking about him seems to make me feel sick. I have to do my studies, but I only think about him. When I meet him, his eyes make me feel like he doesn’t like me.
It’s driving me crazy. Also, we are studying the same subject this year. But he will not sit in the lecture. It makes me wonder if he doesn’t want to see me at all. It’s a lesson without a seminar. That’s why you have to sit in the lecture and get the results. But not sitting at all really bothers me. Every time we first met, we used to look at each other, but now he looked away from me as if he didn’t want to see me, but he made a blind face.
This is really cool. But sometimes he looks at me. I don’t even understand. I thought of telling him that I was fine, but I didn’t have the courage. I don’t even know if it’s right to tell him about what’s been happening lately. Before, I thought I would just meet him and see him. And when I met them, my heart would skip a beat, I would be excited, nervous, and happy.
Now I don’t have the courage to go to him and tell him that I’m sorry. The look is really amazing. It’s really funny how he looks at me but doesn’t see me. Maybe it’s testing me to see if I’m really good to myself. But even in my pride, I also thought that if I was really not good enough, I would not be able to do anything but put myself in a difficult situation. What do I really do?
Because of this, I try to ignore him when I meet him. But when I pass by, I sneak a peek to see if he’s watching me. For some reason, he seems to be watching me. And when you meet him later, when you look at him, he passes by as if he didn’t see you at all. I don’t even understand. Or maybe I fell madly in love with him. Otherwise, I don’t even know if girls behave like this to know if they are good for themselves.
Being good to someone is a big deal. But thinking about him and without realizing it, I get worried, but even this visit seems to be good for me. I’m better. Ladies and sisters please advise. Even if women get better, they hide it and do it to see if it’s better for them.