I don’t even know where to start. I am a 23-year-old girl who has just graduated from school, started working and is studying for her master’s degree. Now that my life is just beginning, I want more than anything to choose a life partner and be confident in my future life.
I met my first love when I was only 17 years old and I was in a relationship with him for five years. We spent a long time together. They planned their future life almost every day and promised each other that they would never break up.
But our man is jealous. At first, I didn’t know much. Finally, during the primary school graduation years, I began to suspect more and more. Since nothing has happened and there is no one to suspect, my man will question everyone I meet where I walk. Where were they and what people were they with on that day. No matter who you are with, don’t hang out with that kind of person, it’s useless to teach me every step.
A man doesn’t see a woman as a friend, so he hates even my friend from the black team. After being busy for a few days and not being able to see each other, I feel even more jealous when I do meet. As soon as we meet, he will take my phone and look at my Facebook first, and then he will be relieved to talk about what he did and who he met in the days when we did not see each other. I found such a life very difficult.
We both get so bad just for that reason. I begged him not to do this, and even threatened to divorce me. Try to separate for a few days. One day, I couldn’t bear it, so I decided to break up. At first, my boyfriend asked for a few days like before. I didn’t agree, and then I begged for a month.
I didn’t want to get along either. But, of course, I wanted to get together because I loved him, but I was deceiving myself that I needed to endure a little now because I had to spend the rest of my life with such a jealous man.
Then my boyfriend finally stopped asking me and said come back whenever you want, I’m waiting for you. After three months, I met my current man and started seeing him. In fact, it has been almost a year since I met this person. Then I can’t love at all. Love is not something you try to make it. In fact, this person is a very good person.
Very gentle, calm, does not bother me. And loves me very much. Now they are talking about getting married. But in my heart, it’s only my jealous boyfriend who I’ve been in love with for five years. No matter what happens, you constantly think about it, you constantly compare your second boyfriend. You will not get used to it. But recently, my ex-boyfriend contacted me. In the beginning, they talked about simple things, and after learning about their work and life, they both asked each other a lot.
My boyfriend told me right away, I’ve dated several girls since you, it’s not normal. I often told you that I can’t be with anyone other than you, if you don’t have a boyfriend and if you still love me, come back, I don’t have suspicions like before, and now I understand and have made amends. At that time, I missed him so much that I couldn’t say that I had someone else.
Then I just asked for time to think. And now, I can’t decide whether to go back to my ex-boyfriend, who stole my love by hurting this good man who has no problems but who can’t be attracted to me, or whether to close my eyes and live with someone who doesn’t love me. It is said that a woman gets used to falling in love, and she will deceive herself that she falls in love when she is together with her child.
To keep my heart happy, I can’t hurt this good man and say that he’s gone. It would be too much to play with people’s hearts. On the other hand, what if you hurt this person and then go back to your ex, and soon start seeing him again? In general, the black will disappear. I really don’t know what decision to make at this time. Follow your heart? Follow your brain?