Have a good day when this letter arrives. I am writing this letter asking for your sincere advice. Right now, I have met my love and I am floating in the sky of love, and I am ready to go into the deep water for my love and dedicate myself to it. But sometimes when my mind falls to the ground and I think about the future, I can’t believe in our future life together.
I am 29 years old, an oil worker far from the city, an ordinary Mongolian with a busy life in the countryside. But my beloved is 2 years younger than me, he was born in a Russian school and then a university abroad, he is the director of a family company, he is mature, his outlook on life is very intelligent, he has a clean face, he is a prince on a white horse for me.
10 months ago, we came to our country with a friend, we got to know each other after becoming young people, and we spent 2 days with each other. We have been living together for 4 months now. My dear, we are going to get married this fall. But I am very doubtful that I can be his life partner.
Because it’s too much for both of us. Even though I have siblings, I take my parents with me. My in-laws don’t like the helpless emptiness of my life, it’s written in their eyes. Also, my lover’s friends and wives say that you are lucky. It is not suitable for the summer of the two of you.
That’s true. I am starting to get acquainted with the way people in the city eat, drink, dress, and speak. But no matter how hard you try, you will never become as beautiful, educated and rich as your previous boyfriend.
Right now, we are both in love, but when we live together, it won’t be just a marriage. I don’t want to be the wife of my lover who is always looked down upon by others and is always looked down upon by my in-laws.
I used to be content with my life living paycheck to paycheck, but now I feel like a bewildered idiot among the city’s competitive hustlers.
What should I do? No matter how much I study, I can’t reach the level of my lover. There is no rush to have a child. In the first place, I think that I should postpone the wedding and live in the area for a few months.
I just want to get rid of all this self-doubt. But it’s scary to walk away from him, and it’s like I have to walk away for him. What should I do? He is very afraid of what will happen if he looks down on me.
Is it better for me? Men who have been married for more than 10 years, please forgive me. Women too please advise…
