I don’t know if my letter will be published, but I want to express what I think and remember in my heart.
Before I came home early, I had another argument with my boyfriend and I came in. I get into arguments again and again because I am very quick to anger and my boyfriend has no one and doesn’t like me.
To make it more clear, let’s write from the beginning, because we met when we were students and pursued me for a long time, but in the end I chose my boyfriend because I thought it was important to him. But when the dispute is near. We have been dating for 1 and a half years and we have been dating for 4 years.
Saying “good” is not a face, I myself grew up in a principled family, the daughter of the family, that’s why my parents taught me to rely on myself, study hard, do things the way I was supposed to, but my boyfriend is very young, he doesn’t like school and culture. I didn’t like to study, and with only 6 months left to graduate, I dropped out of school to start my own business, but nothing happened.
Eventually, I became like a plum, and became very angry. At first, he made many promises to me, for example, to quit smoking, to learn English, not to be lazy, etc. After that, he makes many excuses to ask about it, and he made promises to get back together many times after breaking up, but he rarely fulfilled them.
I try but I’m not satisfied, I’m not that great myself, but I think that a man, my partner should be better than me, so I’ll try hard to be better than myself, but I have a great education and a great job with my boyfriend. I don’t want to become one, I told myself, if you really don’t like learning, you may not like learning a foreign language or working, but if you really want to start your own business, study how people succeed. .
People are surprised that they don’t fight for it after choosing the path they want. In fact, they don’t know what to do now. If you want to divorce, don’t divorce because you can’t be with you, but if you don’t want to divorce, don’t even try. At least he doesn’t have a group, most of his friends are not decent people, they only think about drinking and eating, and a few of them are studying in the radadas.
That’s why if you have colleagues, you have a lot to learn from them, but if you make friends with like-minded people, you can start your own business. I don’t know, sometimes it’s romantic, my parents, especially my mother, didn’t like me very much, when you were the only one trying to lead your life, you were so lazy.
It’s still not going well, that’s why they don’t want to break up. But my boyfriend has a lot of good qualities, he loves me a lot and respects me. I love him too, that’s why I believe in his promises and promises and think that he will fulfill them. Of course, I have my weaknesses too, I try to be selfish and keep it my own, but I always think that I want to fight for the good of that person and fight for our lives together.
But my boyfriend gets angry because he is angry, he doesn’t tell me, he just says he will try. In the end, I will lose faith, how can such a lazy person, who has no mental strength to quit smoking (I don’t even know how many times he promised to quit smoking) entrust his future life and become the backbone of his family.
Right now, I’m really sorry, not angry. Actually, my boyfriend had a very difficult life when he was young, but thanks to his hardworking family, he lives without anything, and his mother and grandmother prepare everything for him.
We have talked many times, although my boyfriend is trying little by little, even if there is a small change, it seems insufficient, but we are not old enough to try now.
What exactly should I do, what should I do to not fight together, and what should I do to be satisfied with my boyfriend? How to fix laziness? Or maybe I’m just a selfish bad person.