How are you? I have been reading this site for over a month.
During this time, I had only read about the events that happened to people, and I never thought that one day I would find myself writing a letter like this.
The words “what is eaten in secret is delicious” and “every secret love is delicious” will never leave my mind. Yes, I have a secret lover. But I don’t think it’s just a sin. I have been in a relationship with my boyfriend for 3 years. I really loved him, I thought that I would never leave him, but love burns once you know it and then goes out.
I’ve learned that when I turn off and turn off, I lose any emotion, joy, or excitement. Two months ago, I really started thinking about everything. My boyfriend really loves me and would not hesitate to give his life for me.
But he sometimes disrespected my wishes, ignored me, and lacked love and care. A woman’s heart is as fragile as a flower that withers and withers unless it is surrounded by kind words, caress and love.
And when he was around, I was lonely. Even the hug is hollow and not the same as before. But one day he came out. Let’s call him M here. At first, I was just friends with M, but once we got to know each other, we fell in love.
He understands me very well, loves me, and whispers warm words in my ear until I find them. His caress makes me feel like the happiest woman in the world. But when I was with my boyfriend, I had never experienced anything like that.
It was like realizing that I am a woman. It’s strange. When you just wake up in the arms of your secret lover, take your boyfriend’s call without being shy, lie to him that you are at work when you are on a date with your secret lover…
It was very awkward at first. But now I’m almost used to it. The thing is, my boyfriend has no idea that I’m putting his back on him. In fact, it is only known to a man with a knife.
But the fact that he doesn’t know a single thing, he won’t come out, at least he won’t check with me, made me even more frustrated, and I really started to believe that he is an insensitive man. It is true that he really believes in me. But you can’t be so careless and careless. That’s it, I thought.
My heart is broken, but I don’t have the heart to leave my boyfriend. It’s like a thought. I really don’t have the right to deceive him like this, who thinks that he has connected his whole life with me. But I don’t want to sacrifice my own happiness for other people’s happiness.
I have a chance to feel good things too, right? I don’t want to be in life as if it was made up. Even though I told myself it was wrong, wrong, it couldn’t be done, my heart and my legs were still yearning for him. I don’t think this is temporary. However, I can’t leave my boyfriend. What should I do? My brain and my soul are conflicting.