Hello. I write because I want to clear my mind even once. I have a simple, caring, caring, loving wife. As a married person, I think that I have a good wife at the age of 30.
It has three beautiful faces. The work is professional. She is struggling with her husband’s burden as best she can. But I wonder if there is such a person’s spouse. I have never met anyone other than my husband. It’s such a procedure that you can’t even look straight at each other.
Until now, she has been trying to make everything meet her requirements, to be a good mother and a good housewife. She did things quickly because she didn’t want to make her husband angry, she painted her face quickly because she didn’t want to wait, she came home from work early in the evening and tried to cook before he came, she didn’t even look at him and say bad things, she didn’t even scold him.
Because he got angry at me without words, he cursed his children badly, so he wanted to be at peace with his children, so he didn’t listen, he endured and endured. My husband has been married to a young woman for ten years and never had any problems. I still think and believe that.
Also, it is very rare for people to go out and have fun and drink wine. From an outsider’s point of view, he is the most enviable good husband anyone has ever seen. People around me say that I am lucky to have met such a person.
But I have no happiness other than my children. No one, neither my husband nor my children, knows how sad and painful I am. This coldness worsened and he touched me several times, though not many times, and insulted me with bad words that I never want to hear. Why am I doing this when I’m trying my best to live up to his demands?
I wonder where that anger comes from. At such a young age, why should such a person feel such things and live in such a state of physical and emotional turmoil? It’s my fault when I did it. It’s really hard, I feel like I’m falling down in life, but I’m putting up with it a hundred times. I don’t know how long I can endure like this.
I feel sorry for creating such a life, but I can’t help but feel sorry for it. This is how you become someone’s spouse. I want nothing more from him. 3 beautiful love and care and warmth that can be opened with just words, not always, but sometimes.
I want the kind of love without any requirements, criteria, conditions, or boundaries, to love just as I am, to be kind, and to support me. The thought of how to soften such a cold and hard river has not left my mind in the last few years.
