Hello, I’m 43 years old, I’ve lived 2 lives so far. I’ve lived a peaceful life for 12 years, I have 3 beautiful children, and I fell in love with my colleague when I came to South Sudan for a year and 3 months.
I didn’t start a property dispute because I thought that this was not the return of my hard work for my family in a foreign land for a whole year and 3 months.
Many soldiers took their uniforms and went out, but they filed a lawsuit against me and decided to pay child support, and I was pressured by the court’s decision to make them unemployed. After 20 years of service, I was supposed to retire in a few years.
This is the beginning of the life of a person named me. The next year, I accidentally met a girl and got close. She left my life with her, her mother passed away, and her father left her when she was young.
I was a girl with 3 sons whose wife passed away. After living together for 5 years, I got used to loving, respecting and trusting more and more. My 3 children also got used to calling me daddy.
After 2 years of living together, we had a beautiful son. My son was born under 700 grams. He was barely a man after 3 months.
I was in a difficult situation where I couldn’t even buy medicine for my unemployed little son, so I got a job as a porter in a landscaping service company. I ran out of the house at dawn and went to work at the base behind the cemetery on the 70th floor. After working for 2 months, I became a driver.
If my son becomes a human being, he said, “Whatever you do, a truck driver, a salary to pay for the violin, life is a bit different. I saw the benefits of my hard work. At the beginning, I was in a rented room. I bought a nice new house with 5 walls, and now I have my own yard.
This person is the meaning of my life, he is a human being, he said, “I want to pay more for my children’s husband, so I went to the night shift. You work alone and say, ‘What are we going to do?’ The second part of my life’s journey started with hanging out with people I didn’t want to be in a nearby shop.
In the beginning, I couldn’t bear to say anything. It’s not hard. If he tries to change his life with my husband, he starts drinking too much. I only drink bottles. I can’t touch him because I love him too much. I’m angry like other men I didn’t learn how to solve problems with tsaar nu draga 3, so I didn’t learn to talk and understand.
On top of that, if you don’t get a divorce from a shaman and a girl, you will die. Your children will die. You will never have a good life. You will never live a good life. From that moment on, if I could not settle down with a house, I would come early in the morning to drink, and then I would take my children to my brothers and leave my son on the street. The young man of the 90s left my house and car.
I couldn’t give my son my own surname, now I want to give him my own surname and send him to kindergarten, but I will first marry the one I love and have a daughter, and then I will change my surname. Soon, my son will turn 3 years old, and he abandoned me and chose someone else, but I am still waiting for him to realize his mistake one day.
Every happy moment that we spent together is still framed in my heart like a picture. Now that I have been with my son for 2 months, I have worked. At the beginning, I used to look for moo moo next to me and cry and hold my baby and sleep. It’s just that he left the house, destroyed the house, left the children, and hurt both of our hearts, so we are waiting for him to realize his mistake…